no one left to watch your back now

it's been far too long

another day, another job interview

realizing that this has been my attitude for the most part in the last 3 places i've lived

sometimes i just need to be left alone.i need solitude in my life.

sunday school

oh great they're getting bigger

i can't believe my boobs are getting bigger again.i didn't realize i was quite so cleavagey this weekend until a friend posted a picture of me hanging out.literally.and then the first day of a new job this past week i thought i was dressed *really* modestly and the guy training me couldn't stop staring at my chest.it's weird always feeling half proud and half modest.

the perfect partner

sometimes

i swear i'm not the perp

i don't know who i am this year

so bored of this game

some inspiration

i can't wait to win

i thought i was done with the sad cinema.but then even watching an episode of doctor who made me almost cry.amy's love for rory struck a raw nerve

i know it's spring but can this winter just be over finally?

you could say that again

nine years ago today

the doctor returned

sometimes i am an extrovert and sometimes i'm not

another one

i hate dreaming lately.i have no escape.

unresponsive

and sometimes the hero thinks he's the hero but isn't. and the princess is actually the hero with the triforce of wisdom and courage but she goes to save in the wrong castle every single time

last night i dreamed i ran into my ex on the street.and i was dressed as link.it made so much sense and the fact that it made sense made me kind of sad.

it's time for a visit

taco tuesday

dreams are the worst sometimes

timelord tuesday

when clarity comes

i guess in the end alcoholism >love

exercise jams

far too often

when she doesn't speak to anyone until four o'clock

i was a hater before you was a hater

there's a good reason this is my favorite disney movie

i think it's a synopsis of my life

trying to snap out of it

praise the lord

indication

the fact that i've been so productive and the fact that every one of my friends who has seen me lately has said something along the lines of "you look so much less stressed out now" is probably a good indicator

this weekend's forecast

still the undisputed title holder

guess who just got offered a job

last night's cinema for the heartbroken features

celeste and jesse forever. i'm not ordinarily a big rashida jones fan (i think she tends to be pretty bland and just a pretty face in a lot of her roles) but her performance in this was really amazing.
lots of tears.lots of feels.it's really hard to accept the fact that the person you really believed in your heart to be your soul mate (when you weren't even sure you believed in the idea of soul mates before it) might not be.especially when you tried.

and revolutionary road.i wish there weren't scenes that i related to kate winslet's character but sadly that wasn't the case.minus the kids part of their lives, some of the arguments hit a little close to home.there was one scene in particular that i tried to find to no avail- but it's this part where leonardo dicaprio's character just won't stop talking and just picking at things and kate winslet's character has finally had enough and freaks out a bit.i've definitely felt that,sometimes you just need a moment to think,or calm down and things would be fine but the other person just picks and picks at the scab and won't allow it to heal.it's better to take a minute to think what you are saying to another person because you might say something you can't take back.you might say it out of emotion and anger and hurt but you might not mean it,but once the other person hears it,it can't be unheard.

if david lynch opened a pizza shop and audrey horne were the counter girl

The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame but it's so true I know it's not right but it seems unfair The things are reminding me of you

maybe i'll just publish a book instead

occupation

mandatory reading

last night's viewing

here's a brief look at what a little over 7 hour marathon of non-stop crying looks like:

forgetting sarah marshall


high fidelity


eternal sunshine of the spotless mind


500 days of summer

and when i give, i give too much too easily

sound advice

learning to counterfeit their disease

it's awesome how much you can get accomplished without any deadweight dragging you down

i used to love him but it's all over now

it's weird to find out even MORE bullshit.seriously,insanely unfuckingbelievable

timelord tuesday

i am actually having a bad day

songs have a way of just materializing

my friend put this album on while we were hanging out today and i had to hold it together.you just never know where or when there'll be a sadness trigger

i forgot this song existed

i was never a fan of interpol but goddamn i do love this song

pi day

i was all right for a while

i was sooooo close to making it the whole day without any tears yesterday.fingers crossed i can do it today.

it feels a lot like this actually

i poured my heart out into a 15 page letter.and then a 2 page addendum.

so many question, so few answers; so many feelings,so few returned

if i had a dime for every time this was said to me

my glass seems to be completely fool