i thought i was going to make it through a whole day without crying yesterday.

i was so close.i really was.i stayed busy,i stayed level headed.
then i watched this is 40.i absolutely was not expecting their relationship to remind me so much of the one i just lost (minus the kids and cool jobs of course)-how we talked and related to one another,fought,goofed off,were disappointed by each other,tried.there were obviously differences too but a lot really did remind me of us.
the fact that george harrison's "what is life" is in this trailer and that today would have been our anniversary means that today won't be the first day i haven't cried yet either. i'm 11 days and counting.
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